you know you missed me.

So I'm back from my ever-eventful trip. The Woodrow Wilson museum was kind of dull, but the restaurant afterwards was really nice. They had at least 15 different hot teas to choose from, which I loved. The motel was terrifying. XD There was no civilization for at least a quarter-mile, and it was isolated up on a big hill. At the bottom of the hill was a fence with barbed wire, so the entire time, people discussed the fact that we were all going to die. :-D This theory was furthered when my group (Sydney, Rachel B., Rachel K., and I) opened our room's door, and saw a huge water stain on our ceiling, narrow and about six feet long....MURDER I SAY!!! It proved interesting at first, but we were very serious when we made Mrs. Jarvis and Mrs. Murray switch rooms with us. XD

The first night was the play, which was pretty darn amazing. There was a ridiculously attractive boy that sang "Mr. Brightside" better than Brandon Flowers...Gawd, I wanted him!!!!! His character actually had to CHANGE in front of me, and I almost keeled over in excitement, much to the amusement of all those around me. Brittany was about to fall out of her seat, she was laughing so hard at me. It was pretty amusing, I guess, until daddy got mad at me. He yelled at me for being "enthusiastic", which pissed me off. I told him so, too - when was the last time I was excited about anything?! I mean, I've been so blaahhh for ages, so he should've been glad I was so excited about something!! He later apologized and bought me a t-shirt that said "We do it with the lights on", so all was forgiven. I also wanted the t-shirt with all the different pick-up lines, such as "if thou hast sinned, teach me" and "thy instrument's well tuned" and "Let's take this a button-hole lower". XDXDXD

That evening wasn't very much fun. All the girls went to Tim Vinick's room, and as much as I wanted to join them, I didn't go because Allison was having her little breakdown because she found out that Ian has been lying to her about spending time with other girls. Whatever, they're back together because Allie is an NAIVE LITTLE GIRL who refuses to face the fact that he lied several times, and nothing is going to change that, and she'll never believe another word he says. I told her that when he does it again, I am NOT going to be there for her again. I CAN'T do that to myself! I have enough shit in my life without wasting my time, breath, and words. She won't listen, so what good could it do? Garrr sorry, I just got into a text argument with her.

Next day was the Monticello tour. It was so beautiful, and I loved the way he set up his house! There was this awesome bed set-up where the bed was right between two rooms, and right above was his closet...there's a pic at http://theneoteric.net/pix/monticello2.jpg so check it out!!!

Bus ride had plenty of tears, all coming from allison. I missed kellie the whole trip, but allie didn't care. Whatever, I don't care. Sat with Brittany for about 20 minutes, talked about our significant others. She makes me so angry...Danielle told Kellie that Britt cheated on me with D, which can be skeptical because Danielle said it. But turns out, Britt told Jonathan about it...So it's undeniable. Which makes me cry sometimes, the fact that she's an absolute liar.

I let Jonathan kiss me yesterday. I hate myself, and I very severely want to kill myself. Kellie deserves a million times better. I should've stopped him, but I didn't. Now I can barely look at him, I'm so ashamed of myself. I wish I could go back in time, but I can't. If I tell her...She will leave me...I told Jonathan that it would be the last kiss probably for the rest of our lives, and he seemed to understand. I don't know...

My dog, Turk, might get put down today. He's been in a ton of pain the past few weeks, and it hurts me to see him, so maybe it's for the best. I know it is, but it will hurt so badly....I love my doggy....I've had him for 12 years!!!

I'm ready to die now. Bye!